-“if I don’t kill myself, school will”
-“time to go home and wallow in self-deprecating thoughts”
-“fuck you, I didn’t ask to be born”
-“why am I still here”
-“I don’t want to be like this anymore, but I don’t know how to get better”
-“how much bleach would it take to kill me”
-“a car almost ran me over, and all I could think was thank God, it’ll all be over soon”
-“I want to get better, please help me get better”
-*while sobbing* “I can’t- I can’t finish this on time oh god I’m gonna fail, I’m gonna fail I’m gonna fail I can’t fail this class no you don’t understand-”
Adults brushing every single one of us off.
-“I know I shouldn’t be whining, but I can’t even focus anymore”
Kids with a train of thought running 100 miles an hour, multitasking is our friend, but still being called lazy because we couldn’t finish on time, because the words are turning into letter soup and people talking to fast and all you want to do is curl up into a ball because “I swear I’m trying, I just can’t focus please leave me alone don’t yell at me I don’t want to cry for the fifth time this week”.
-“Don’t you have an English essay due tomorrow?” “Yeah but I also have a chem write up due the same day so I’m typing that up while brainstorming” “don’t forget your math homework and to study for the German quiz” “I’ll do math when i wake up and study when I’m heading to school”
Teachers telling us not to drink coffee because “it’s bad for people your age!” but it’s the only thing keeping ¾ of the school awake.
-“I’m only alive because I don’t want to leave my friends who’re worse off”
-“I’m so sorry”
-“Can you breathe for me?”
-“whoever’s the asshole who graffitied the gender-neutral bathroom, fuck you”
-“why am I still here? I don’t know anymore”
-*distraught* “why do they keep doing this?! I can’t type up 7 essays in 3 days!”
-“you took your meds right?”
-“you’re bleeding” “so what, I deserve it” “give me your arm, I’ll patch you up”
Everyone just ignoring their own needs. Need for sleep, need for socializing, need for food, for hygiene, just to take a break, all of it forgotten.
-“did you eat?” “No” *hands them a sandwich* “absolutely not, I know you, you haven’t eaten in 3 days because you’re feeling everyone else” “just take the sandwich” “this isn’t healthy” “I know, but rather me than everyone else starve, and besides, I’m not hungry”
-“did you sleep?” “No, but I did cry until sun rise”
-“if there was a mass suicide, would the adults finally see that we aren’t okay, or would they still blame it on us?”
These are things either said by me, my friends, overheard in the hallways, in the classrooms, on the bus, spanning from middle school to now.