if you squish a bug!!!!!!!! im gonna squish!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

some of you didnt turn 13 and instantly start questioning religion, gender, and sexuality and it shows
aesthetic: those landscape photos that look like they were taken on another planet in deep space






Gay cowboys: a concept
As written by a Gen Z kid
Generation Z kids are here, and we are very, very afraid for our futures.
Let me add some I’ve Heard:
•”Please just kill me now”
•”Kill me.” “Want me to ask my mom to run over you.” “Please.” (While waiting in car line”
•”if I just refused to do any of this work would I fail?”
•”Halfway through that exam I gave up and fell asleep.”
•”I’m running on 4 hours of sleep and lots of anxiety!”
•”I mean I don’t wanna die, but please kill me now.”
•”I’m tired.” “Same.” “What’d time you go to bed?” “I didn’t.”
•”I’d rather die than run the mile.”
•”It’s like they want us to fail.”
•”If I took this whole bottle of pills would it kil me?”
•”I don’t even care that I don’t care, and I don’t care that that upsets you.”
•”How much do strippers get paid? Sounds better than living through this hell for 4 more years after graduating high school.”
•”I just wanna sleep forever and never wake up.”
•”I don’t know what I wanna be when I grow up, I’m the only one who’s gonna be homeless.”
•”Hey I just thought you should know, I’m bisexual. But please don’t mention it, I haven’t told my parents yet because I’m afraid they’ll hate me.”
•”I wanna come out and I hate hiding this part of myself, but I’m too young to be kicked out of my house.”
•”Do you hate me now?” (After coming out as gay)
•”Do you still love me” (after coming out as bi)
•”Please shoot me.”
•”If there was a school shooting today I wouldn’t even run.”
•”The only thing keeping me alive is the need to feed my cats when I get home.”
•”Mom’s in a bad mood again today, can I stay over at your house?”
•”I’m sorry.” “For what?” “I don’t even know.”
•”I can’t wear this skirt but (random guy in my class) can literally be shirtless?”
•”where’s your essay?” “I turned it in.” “Well then why can’t I find it?” “Maybe you lost it?” “How disrespectful of you! I need the whole essay and rough draft on my desk by the end of the day.”
and this shit will sound familiar because you hear variants of it everywhere, every day, from almost anyone.
“do you think if i killed myself you guys wouldn’t have to go to math class”
-“if I don’t kill myself, school will”
-“time to go home and wallow in self-deprecating thoughts”
-“fuck you, I didn’t ask to be born”
-“why am I still here”
-“I don’t want to be like this anymore, but I don’t know how to get better”
-“how much bleach would it take to kill me”
-“a car almost ran me over, and all I could think was thank God, it’ll all be over soon”
-“I want to get better, please help me get better”
-*while sobbing* “I can’t- I can’t finish this on time oh god I’m gonna fail, I’m gonna fail I’m gonna fail I can’t fail this class no you don’t understand-”
Adults brushing every single one of us off.
-“I know I shouldn’t be whining, but I can’t even focus anymore”
Kids with a train of thought running 100 miles an hour, multitasking is our friend, but still being called lazy because we couldn’t finish on time, because the words are turning into letter soup and people talking to fast and all you want to do is curl up into a ball because “I swear I’m trying, I just can’t focus please leave me alone don’t yell at me I don’t want to cry for the fifth time this week”.
-“Don’t you have an English essay due tomorrow?” “Yeah but I also have a chem write up due the same day so I’m typing that up while brainstorming” “don’t forget your math homework and to study for the German quiz” “I’ll do math when i wake up and study when I’m heading to school”
Teachers telling us not to drink coffee because “it’s bad for people your age!” but it’s the only thing keeping ¾ of the school awake.
-“I’m only alive because I don’t want to leave my friends who’re worse off”
-“I’m so sorry”
-“Can you breathe for me?”
-“whoever’s the asshole who graffitied the gender-neutral bathroom, fuck you”
-“why am I still here? I don’t know anymore”
-*distraught* “why do they keep doing this?! I can’t type up 7 essays in 3 days!”
-“you took your meds right?”
-“you’re bleeding” “so what, I deserve it” “give me your arm, I’ll patch you up”
Everyone just ignoring their own needs. Need for sleep, need for socializing, need for food, for hygiene, just to take a break, all of it forgotten.
-“did you eat?” “No” *hands them a sandwich* “absolutely not, I know you, you haven’t eaten in 3 days because you’re feeling everyone else” “just take the sandwich” “this isn’t healthy” “I know, but rather me than everyone else starve, and besides, I’m not hungry”
-“did you sleep?” “No, but I did cry until sun rise”
-“if there was a mass suicide, would the adults finally see that we aren’t okay, or would they still blame it on us?”
These are things either said by me, my friends, overheard in the hallways, in the classrooms, on the bus, spanning from middle school to now.
‘wanna go to the 3rd floor and jump out of the window? If it doesn’t kill us at least we get a little more time to work on it’
‘it’s been 3 days since I’ve slept and I think I can smell colors’
‘finally! After 3 panic attacks, 9 coffees ,5 times trying to stab myself with a pencil and absolutely no sleep it is finished!’
Can I strangle myself with my scarf?
’ how high is this classroom, I wanna jump out of the window but If it doesn’t kill me it’s kinda useless’
‘can you die from coffee? If so give me another 3’
‘this exacto-knive has been used cut alot of different things, I can’t get those blood stains out of it though’
‘so is it true that *teacher * is a pedofile? Yup, still won’t get fired because of it ’
’*on Friday *“how much did you sleep this week? ” *sticks up 9 fingers while banging head on the table * “let me die, hell is school and heaven is death” “I thought you were atheist? ” “but now I believe in hell, fuck you”’
I’m not gonna say more, but all of these are said or by me or my classmates
Pretty much everything above and below have been said by either me, my friends or my school or some variation of it, its sad how its just a nornal thing to say
“Im depressed” *gets high fives and nods of agreements from surrounding students*
“Whatcha doing later?” “Math homework, history homework, english short story, science project, and studying for japanese, math and history finals” “due this week?” “Yup”
“I get to eat lunch today!”
“If i dont kill myself, school will”
“I can’t do this I’m too stupid to do anything”
*sheltered school student* “I heard your someone was caught vaping at your school!” “Which kid this time”
“Dude [enter kids name here] got expelled” “hah finally only took like 24 suspensions from bringing tequila and rum into the school”
“I aint going to school im gonna get shot”
(Just off the top of my head)
*in med class talking about comas*
“if I’m in a coma with no chance of waking up pull the plug” “if I’m in a coma with a 100% of waking up please still pull the plug”
“If i get dress codee for this tee shirt again i am gonna have to just die because i only own 7 shirts”
*teacher says being suicidal* *student (me) raises hand* *teacher tells me she wants to see me after class* *teacher proceeds to yell at me for thinking i have the right to try to argue with her about a topic i know nothing about* *student trys to say they actually have been suicidal twice and have attempted suicide once and gives proof* *teacher calls student selfish*
“Throw a brick at my head untill i die” “only if you shoot me right before you die”
“I know we promised eachother we wouldnt kill ourselves unless one of us did but what if we just swollow a few bottles of pills together”
*riding on skateboard in parkinglot 10 minutes late* “well my mom is gonna kill me for being late anyways so im just gonna wait out here untill my favorite class”
“Would i get expelled if a teacher found out im gay?”
“suicide pact?” “suicide pact.”
*hasn’t eaten anything today* “nah i’m not hungry”
“i don’t have enough money for food”
“hey whatcha doing this weekend?” “homework”
“see you in hell” “aw man i don’t want to go back to school!”
“how are you?” “oof”
“i’m not drunk enough for this shit”
“euthanize me please”
“I have this brilliant plan. I’ll work my ass off in high school but fail anyway. I won’t get into any colleges but I wouldn’t be able to pay anyway. Then I’ll probably just shoot myself.”
“I mean he’s never actually hit me so technically everything is fine.”
“I swore I would never drink or do drugs because of my parents but I’m reconsidering.”
“I’m on my 5th coffee so if caffeine poisoning is real just know that it’s for the best.”
*casually recommending mental institutions to each other*
*casually comparing how many times we’ve attempted*
“im sorry we cant be together yet but he said he’ll kill himself if i dont date him”
“i hate that everyone is telling me to just hang on until im happy, i dont wanna be happy..i want to be dead”
me:
pro-military tumblr: So you care about YOUR ptsd but not the ptsd of imperialists who have nightmares bc they murdered children?? 🤔😐
*chokes*

